Size DOESN'T matter.
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What matters is YOUR perception of size.
I have been wanting to make this post for a couple days now. Mainly since I have made a revelation. Society and other people have no right to dictate to me how I should look, what I should weigh and how I should feel about my own body. Lately I have been following a blog that is called Dances with Fat. And it is really helping me realize that I shouldn't feel embarressed by my size.
I will be blunt - according to society in the US I am obese. I am 5 foot 11, weigh over 250. My doctor tells me that my weight will have me with all sorts of horrible deadly medical conditions. But let me share something with you.
I have given birth to two healthy children. My body shows the battle scars from these two HEROIC pregnancies. I breastfed exclusively both children for a combined total of 3 years. My breasts show the scars from that. Should I be ashamed that I have a pooch? Should I be ashamed that my breasts sag? According to popular culture, yes I should be so embarressed I will pay for plastic surgery, or for diet pills or diet plans. I have decided that I am proud of my body, I am proud of my battle scars. And if you don't like it random person on the street... that is YOUR problem not mine.
I used to be a severe atshmatic, and that was back when I was 'acceptable' and not considered a 'plus size woman.' After I was pregnant with Gabe - my athsma improved dramatically. In fact I rarely use my rescue inhaler, something that I used to use a few times a day on top of plenty of controller meds. Also used to have severe heartburn and migraines. Well the migraines I still get but that is from a health problem that is completely unrelated to my weight. (Lattice Degeneration in my eyes)
Now yes I know weight can have a negative impact on our health. I do want to point out, that I walk every day, and I chase two children under 4 all over the place. Now that summer is here I usually get a good leg workout in the pool pushing said kids around in their floaties. My dinner plate has more fruits and vegetables then grains and protein. And yet I cannot lose any weight.
Yes my biggest vice right now is Pop... I am working on cutting that out but during the summer I just love the fizz so much, I am working on it! My husband comments I eat a lot of crap. I admit I do eat junk food, but just as often I will be munching on veggies and fruits. Soon as I get this icky tooth pulled I can go back to my favorite carrots. When I cook I generally cook healthy, very little fat, no salt, plenty of fresh veggies etc. After all I am a mom who wants to see her kids healthy!
I used to obsess over my weight... I'd go into cycles when I was depressed about it, I'd dress in the baggiest clothes I had or even not bother to get dressed at all and just sit in my PJs. No longer. My blood pressure is low even for a 'healthy thin person.' I haven't had the weekly athsma attacks in quite a long time. The athsma is still there, just not running my life. I have plenty of energy, most of the time, I am strong from carrying my kids and lugging around car seats/groceries.
Why should I punish myself for my body doing what it was designed to do. My 'fat' thighs walk me where I want to go. My 'big ass' lets me sit down so I can cuddle my kids. My 'saggy' breasts fed my two kids and now make wonderful pillows for my husband and the kids. If clothes don't fit, it isn't my body's fault, it is the style or cut of the clothes.
You can keep your anerixic thin bodies society. I am a woman. I am proud of what my body accomplishes in the past and on a daily basis. I plan on taking care of it, and honestly starving myself, taking weight loss pills, obsessing over wearing a size 0 or comparing myself to other people is not in my best interest or the interest of my wonderful body.
When and if my body develops health concerns that are directly correlated to my weight that is a hurdle I will jump when I get there. I am who I am now. If you have a problem with that, then maybe YOU should rethink your stance.
I have been wanting to make this post for a couple days now. Mainly since I have made a revelation. Society and other people have no right to dictate to me how I should look, what I should weigh and how I should feel about my own body. Lately I have been following a blog that is called Dances with Fat. And it is really helping me realize that I shouldn't feel embarressed by my size.
I will be blunt - according to society in the US I am obese. I am 5 foot 11, weigh over 250. My doctor tells me that my weight will have me with all sorts of horrible deadly medical conditions. But let me share something with you.
I have given birth to two healthy children. My body shows the battle scars from these two HEROIC pregnancies. I breastfed exclusively both children for a combined total of 3 years. My breasts show the scars from that. Should I be ashamed that I have a pooch? Should I be ashamed that my breasts sag? According to popular culture, yes I should be so embarressed I will pay for plastic surgery, or for diet pills or diet plans. I have decided that I am proud of my body, I am proud of my battle scars. And if you don't like it random person on the street... that is YOUR problem not mine.
I used to be a severe atshmatic, and that was back when I was 'acceptable' and not considered a 'plus size woman.' After I was pregnant with Gabe - my athsma improved dramatically. In fact I rarely use my rescue inhaler, something that I used to use a few times a day on top of plenty of controller meds. Also used to have severe heartburn and migraines. Well the migraines I still get but that is from a health problem that is completely unrelated to my weight. (Lattice Degeneration in my eyes)
Now yes I know weight can have a negative impact on our health. I do want to point out, that I walk every day, and I chase two children under 4 all over the place. Now that summer is here I usually get a good leg workout in the pool pushing said kids around in their floaties. My dinner plate has more fruits and vegetables then grains and protein. And yet I cannot lose any weight.
Yes my biggest vice right now is Pop... I am working on cutting that out but during the summer I just love the fizz so much, I am working on it! My husband comments I eat a lot of crap. I admit I do eat junk food, but just as often I will be munching on veggies and fruits. Soon as I get this icky tooth pulled I can go back to my favorite carrots. When I cook I generally cook healthy, very little fat, no salt, plenty of fresh veggies etc. After all I am a mom who wants to see her kids healthy!
I used to obsess over my weight... I'd go into cycles when I was depressed about it, I'd dress in the baggiest clothes I had or even not bother to get dressed at all and just sit in my PJs. No longer. My blood pressure is low even for a 'healthy thin person.' I haven't had the weekly athsma attacks in quite a long time. The athsma is still there, just not running my life. I have plenty of energy, most of the time, I am strong from carrying my kids and lugging around car seats/groceries.
Why should I punish myself for my body doing what it was designed to do. My 'fat' thighs walk me where I want to go. My 'big ass' lets me sit down so I can cuddle my kids. My 'saggy' breasts fed my two kids and now make wonderful pillows for my husband and the kids. If clothes don't fit, it isn't my body's fault, it is the style or cut of the clothes.
You can keep your anerixic thin bodies society. I am a woman. I am proud of what my body accomplishes in the past and on a daily basis. I plan on taking care of it, and honestly starving myself, taking weight loss pills, obsessing over wearing a size 0 or comparing myself to other people is not in my best interest or the interest of my wonderful body.
When and if my body develops health concerns that are directly correlated to my weight that is a hurdle I will jump when I get there. I am who I am now. If you have a problem with that, then maybe YOU should rethink your stance.
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